Setting alone here, I can sympathize with my grandmother when she told me to stay with her, beside her because she didn’t want to stay alone. I can hear the voices loud inside my head, I can’t see clearly and I don’t want to talk or say anything, I just want to stay silent.
Quite cold nights, sincere laughs and talks, family gatherings, warm dinner meals and change is between the sheets. The world is still struggling with COVID, the vaccine appears to the surface but I didn’t take it yet, and it happens that I’m not one of COVID survivors. Me and all of my family were somehowContinue reading “Leather boots”
It was the day you remembered Fragments of my heart has stolen It was the day you died in front of me hundreds of times Lavish man with a soft beard & lantern It was the day, but it’s not yet It’s not the day To call me A lover A sweetheart Purge myself fromContinue reading “Lantern”
Sad to bring this upon you You, my loved one You, my sunshine when I needed the light You’re the water nature of myself You’re the earth when I needed to feel comfort Mama, Hated the country But never the home I wanted freedom but Never to escape I’m stayin’ I’m leavin’ I’ll be hereContinue reading “Mama, my heart only escaped”
Here it’s, a three years anniversary Woke up this morning with sunflower in my mouth In a place where I don’t want to be in Here it’s three years in November Struggling with family Struggling with medicines, with purple life I remember when I was hospitalized In a mental institute, for the first time IContinue reading “White blues”
Today, I communicate with many people living outside Saudi Arabia, I heard many stories and I’m ready to tell mine! Dr. Taleb Al Abdulmuhsen is one of them, he’s in Germany, a psychiatrist, ex-Muslim and above all anti Saudi government. I asked him that I’m seeking asylum in Sweden, he send me his website (wearesaudis.net)Continue reading “December: The grey chapter”
It’s November, the weather is still hot but it will surely get cold on the end of the month. I can’t wait to start studying again. Everything was pure on a day before sunsets, and I’m trying to restore that solid moments of happiness. The leaves are fallen and prepare it self to a newContinue reading “November: Crimson sun”
Thursday, 5th of October, the journey began, I have finally established a physical identity for me, I will receive my ID card after a week. Then, I will open a bank account and finally find a job, I need more than 4000 s. r. per month. I couldn’t imagine things will work for me easilyContinue reading “October: The reality you imposed on me”