Setting alone here, I can sympathize with my grandmother when she told me to stay with her, beside her because she didn’t want to stay alone. I can hear the voices loud inside my head, I can’t see clearly and I don’t want to talk or say anything, I just want to stay silent.
I feel nostalgic to memories I never left, to memories I live with everyday I don’t want to leave it, don’t want to. Music, coffee, studying for hours & lying almost dead, doing nothing. Waking up on my mother’s voice, knowing always I’ll be back home. Tears never dried. So lie here my darling, lieContinue reading
Spent the night in Paris Where we visit Place de Mahmoud Darwish and Sacré-Cœur I pictured the joy in your heart And save it for eternity in Water lilies & mirror lakes Crab color sky and cherry ice cream with children Reminds you of a stolen time.
It was the day you remembered Fragments of my heart has stolen It was the day you died in front of me hundreds of times Lavish man with a soft beard & lantern It was the day, but it’s not yet It’s not the day To call me A lover A sweetheart Purge myself fromContinue reading “Lantern”
Tormented, anxious Depression & rispredon Addiction, grief, misadventure I’m still on the bright side Sometimes we face the call inside of us Life want us to change It was August and I was bright To a generation of healers Hold on to limits, lilies & the dark
Sad to bring this upon you You, my loved one You, my sunshine when I needed the light You’re the water nature of myself You’re the earth when I needed to feel comfort Mama, Hated the country But never the home I wanted freedom but Never to escape I’m stayin’ I’m leavin’ I’ll be hereContinue reading “Mama, my heart only escaped”
Here it’s, a three years anniversary Woke up this morning with sunflower in my mouth In a place where I don’t want to be in Here it’s three years in November Struggling with family Struggling with medicines, with purple life I remember when I was hospitalized In a mental institute, for the first time IContinue reading “White blues”
An ordinary day of February’s cold nights at the Ritz Carlton, Riyadh! where we played bowling, billiards and ate dinner at Circle restaurant