May: Spring’s blossomĀ 

Wednesday, May 3rd, I feel like I am really clear and honest with myself and this reflects on how I talk and pursue things, I was having a conversation with a friend I don’t know much about him, he told me something and he ask me after a long talk about his lover that didn’t want him, a question about the beauty of the body and how it belongs to our desires and I answered him with: of course sensuality is part of art and art reflects our feelings and desires. Monday, 8th of May, some people act weirdly, and I’m trying to understand them. You don’t have to be pathetic just because I’m smarter than you, this is what happened with the same person I’ve previously mentioned, he kept misbehaving and I give him a second chance but he kept repeating what I’m saying with stupid and childish way, last thing I said to him is ‘can I know what’s wrong with you?’ And he repeated my sentence and then I blocked him forever and I’m feeling relieved. Sunday 14th of May, my mom were out today from hospital, she’s totally fine and in good health, we celebrated this occasion specially that it’s Mother’s Day today, I would like to thank her for everything she did to us, we love you mom. I started writing many poems these days after a long discontinuation, hopefully I will release a book of them next year. Wednesday 17th of May, I get to know Faisal Hijazi, he’s a new friend, I knew him from some Arabic program “app” for chatting, we are talking for two days now and he shocked me yesterday with weird demand. He’s going to open a gym soon and he wants somebody to do financial analysis besides money laundering and he told me I can trust you with that! For me, money laundering is a huge economical crime and for everyone with a moral sense and also it brings many issues that effect the country’s economy, so I refused and I asked him why would he do such thing? Faisal is a very thoughtful kind of person and he’s a doctor beside being a gamer. Tuesday, May 23rd, Faisal is so sweet with me and he loves me a lot, he said also to me ‘marry me?’ and I told him I like you and I want to be with you but I don’t want to get married now, I’m still young and I need to finish my bachelors degree first. I started writing many poems this month, it’s not usual but hopefully I will keep that to the next year so I can release my book with them, here is some.

May of flowers
it happens to be a poet
at this time of the year
I will redraw my lines
and rebreathe the air
would you help me?
I’m tired and lonely
I have lost the alphabet
and lost myself with it
it happens to be a girl
at this time
in this universe
water nymph and wild
it happens to be me
myself, nobody else
I would repeat the song
and redraw the lines

Another one:
He awaits for her
everything in his place reminds him
of their moments together
the golden watch,
her hands,
and her pleasant smile
such an innocent face;
he said,
while she was absorbing
the green light in his eyes
tenderly touches her lips,
after he kissed her,
and they talked about sentiments,
their first attachments
he goes to work
and he awaits for her

And I wrote this because we are moving to a new home, hopefully in the coming months, I’m so excited about this and hope for the best for me and my family.

Driven down by desires
facing my ancient home
soon we will be away
from here
from our memories,
things we built together,
to a new beginning
and a new dawn to rise

This’s the poems that I want to share but there’s many other poems that are really beautiful, I’m still a beginner in writing and I will push my self always towards improvement. Thursday, May 25th I didn’t saw but the flags of Saudi Arabia and United States on the streets and unfortunately I’m not part of Riyadh’s Arab Islamic-American summit so I can’t talk about it, but I wanted to document this remarkable event in my journals so I could remember it later, and also to be part of recording history in its simplest form. Saturday, 27th of May, its Ramadan today and we are happy celebrating this holy month’s traditions, from cooking to chatting with friends and watching tv programs. I just want to mention that we had our first fight me and that doctor Fasial and I don’t know where things are going from now, he wants to talk to me on the phone although I told him that I don’t have a phone number at the moment.

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